I used to separate school from home so neatly. Family is separate from friends, and thats that. But you realize after a while that people you meet in the “outside” world can invade your “home” world and vice versa. intellectually i realized this but emotionally I still separated my family and home life. In the same way, I learned to separate parts of myself. Learn to stifle my heart when I see someone suffering, learn to put on a mask of indifference, learn to put on glasses of cynicism, learn to be something I’m not. I viewed this entire process as practical, a way to deal with life in the same way I saw everyone else unconsciously deal with it as well. 

However, lately my vision of life has been shifting, i see that life is more of a canvas of opportunity that sprawls across social networks, connection, and love. Things can come together to make one beautiful whole. Family can become friends, friends family, and your soul can truly express all the treasures inside of it in every situation in life you come across.

I want to be honest with myself, discover who I really am, who God has created me to be. It is painful, this journey He has started to take me on; this journey to take out all the impurities in myself and refine me into what I was meant to be. But really, who am I kidding, this is the only journey worth taking right? To be honest, to fulfill your calling, to be filled with integrity, love, and truth. 

Thank You Jesus, you know the perfect way to transform me, and you see me as I am. It does seem like a dream sometime, how powerfully you move in my life; what is man that you are mindful of him? But every prayer I have asked you have answered, every thought I know you hear. thank you, that I dont have to go through this life alone, that you are really my best friend. i trust you to take me where i have to go. to the unknown, i plunge~